Well, now I finally have some time to myself to write something decent….or close to it. However, I would like to say Happy Birthday, again, to my mother. She has finally past the ‘middle’ age as I put it….or 50. I doubt she would appreciate her age being online, but honestly who cares. Wisdom comes with age yes( in some shape or form anyway. )?
Anyway, life has been too dramatic for my taste for the past few days. Family issues, but to be more specific MONEY issues…I do not honestly think I cost my parents too much…I do not ask for anything, rarely. I will not say exactly what it is, since I want to respect my parents wishes, but truthfully it irks me. I guess I should be used to this since I have grown up with this ‘threat’ my whole life, but not now. The economy has seen better days, now is no time to fool around with money since you could lose everything you have. My mom talks to people daily in fact….but I digress, back on topic. Said issue also causes fights….which, bluntly, are stupid….in a sense. My dad tends to treat himself a little to much sometimes….my mom hates this. My brother and I have been trying to get her to treat herself as well, since it’s only fair, but she never listens….She really should….Like I said I’m inexpensive now so I do not see the problem….That’s life for you….Never makes sense.
That, folks, has been my life. Stressing and listening to things that have nothing to do with me. I came to a realization as well. I love my parents to death, but I will not regret moving out. For about my whole life I have never had a peaceful life…once. Bad luck from stupid choices always seems to cloud up this house. I want a more peaceful environment….Who I would move in with…I have an idea, but not really sure…I need a job first until I even think of making that step. After I save my grand for school then I can think of this….for now I am putting it on the shelf. No point in thinking of what can not be for a good couple of months.
Aside from their madness I have been up to nothing. Absolutely nothing. Still working here and there on my room project, but I have not been very productive….Ah well…I’ll make my shelf and do my boxes today…I have too…I feel so lazy and useless.
I guess to add more onto the random I am no longer single…I guess this is a shocker since I am actually sure about loving him. Yes, him. There was major confusion on weather I wanted to date guys again, but after dating my ex again for about two days I figured why not. Brendan is a year and a couple months younger then I, but who cares about age. I guess I am a little tense since two of my ex’s were younger then me….and oh boy, when we broke up they made my life a living hell for a couple of months. This, folks, is why I turned bi….cruelty. I digress though, that’s the past though…I doubt he would do that….I really do. It’s not a part of his character. I am just thankful I have someone as sweet as he is…I am going to try my best…better then my best even. I want to treasure every moment with him…when he gets back. He’s on a vacation now. Hoping and wishing him the best of times…sealed with a kiss.
For now I should do less talk and more action…and I will.
